She and They

Oath, I don't know have to be started where from this article but at least I try to write. Write a composition, even I know if mistake and wisdom will vanish my sentences line half, even tear will vanish word for word.

'cc' possibly that, the two letter in taking away from his front name. A woman which have transferred my mind since first time start lecturing in Gunadarma University. By then she precisely sit in two left chair in front of my chair. Didn't know what did that love at first sight or that clear on I merely will recognize it in advance, farther than the man friends also newly I recognized. Stupid possibly my him which don't lose since me in Junior high school, I fear if the woman I like exactly go away from me effect of feeling like the, don't know although my stupidity is any out of reason but love I can know one intention that is, "I fear her loss in time wait, I fear cannot near she again at the time involuntary me mention "I like you, I love you". I hope in illusion if will is the wind conveniently submit my million feeling to her.

Days continue to change with in accompanying my stupidity, the days be in fact inappropriate for me experience. Until arrive my boredom top which always accompany it, I try to come near the other woman just for simply transferring my feeling to her, considerably in intending I come near the woman both for have owned the girlfriend. just Remain to I cannot forget 'cc', me cannot transfer feeling off hand from moment her I hear the news that 'cc' taking a fancy to my friend, 'id', even I know 'ed' its response will not in because 'ed' have owned the girlfriend and he love it. With frustration I try to write with different pen, pen the meant is the woman become transfer of my feeling. Enough just study the life of of direct me tell the love to the woman with secretory whole falsehood of my mouth, liver the feeling to fail in all the cannot again differentiate between combatants and defeated person. With beaten (forgiveness, that lie!) I am in him refusing!, "Wew, this worthless", enunciated first woman her which refuse me. Reason she refuse me because she have owned the boyfriend, she spell out members what a pity to his boyfriend and reason of both is his friend which still one class also actually like with my. I not give a dam all that which I remember at that moment merely 'cc'.

Continue the storey level with the achievement index relative very I don't expect, awake me to change and don't triffle again for things of no use to destroy my study. With encouraged two crony people 'ap' and 'et', house friend is at the same time friend since I sit in first bench in Senior high school and always in agreement in all. Both of them try the sermon to me if "This is not fantasy, we live in the real world, there is readily people kill for the shake of a mouthful rice for his stomach outside there. Live also is not concerning Ciderella with his glass shoe is readily waited by the handsome prince in luxury alley back part of his palace, 'just grow up!' is it we are not their". Sermon they start to open my eye concerning this world last I try to learn very seriously the beside correcting mistake that happened in semester then. "Enough all this, pain!", my whir is great to let loose split smile and spurious noise laugh before campus friends, at the same time destroy all the disappointment have never attended in reality in moment I know 'cc' have owned the boyfriend. Again and again my stupidity which make my face cannot again avert this reality. "This my mistake, this my stupidity, why do I don't dare to inform it?, the me loved it in advance, then why is.. Ahh, let it over!."

I am out for to always become the someone good for all my friends in campus including 'cc', even we seldom speak. Too much raging at and the denigration glide from my friends which know my stupidity to 'cc', but I am only it facing by smiling the friendliness without doing the something. At one time is a statement from 'el' she is one of the my close friend, "She is not the soothsayer can know yours feeling, hence from that you have to inform it" that thing enough make my chest felt difficult breathe in the centre of lecturing clock. Date from that without friend I know I try softer it informing because of I don't dare to if directly. Don't know start from using short message service till come near more intensive it pass solution of Iesson topic. Again and again "Ahh..", disinclination emerge at the time 'cc' likely signal Your Exellency don't from me, "Again enough!", I crane, all this will only make I is  swung drift in eye fantasy and dream.

To assure, I try just to discuse whereof with its close friend 'cc' that is 'ml'. Our coincidence one group together 'cc' also in finishing the percentage duty in class. Medial solution of time duty 'cc' is not entering study, I try the questioning to 'ml', "Do wrong if we love the someone which have owned the boyfriend?", meagrely jib at 'ml' call upon, "Yes not wrong, our don't become the third party break the relation she is. If you do that - wrong. Which I catch 'ml' enough sign something from the answer, don't know what do precisely the is clearly likely all directions have given best navigation for brotherly seasons. Thereafter in short order I go out from fulfilled by the room downhill last laugh persiflage doorstep dance three from owned doorstep child a four floors building and I am direct go to park, ascertain the motorbike and myself to go through journey, without hurried of motorbike bark me and run it to the last cessation. At arrival at home mother greet the me with my best regards which have thrown before all after knocking at. "What is it nak, why is yours face is drawn so? How is your study what is hard of his Iesson or the made angry by the lecturer?", "Don't, merely a few just fatigues." Direct me go to the room chamber, fall down the body and at once my sleep of well-sleep as flying often cloud.

New person for day tomorrow, "Hahh, tonight too quiet to create brightness" around 11pm I go out from chamber and sit the terrace. There is no one a late habit even also except hefty man with blunt weapon in left waist of the him every day circle around my house, he stare at sharply to all careful directions every is compromising gesture. With view level off he turn around and what is me, "Not sleeped, son?", "Not to mention many minds", as at the same time chuckl, "Have ever been there is no need to thought of, merely because woman thought of shall so still many is women outside there. You still young become still many choices, not yet of course she is good woman such as you expect", "Lho, why do you can know what do I am think of?", my reply is vexed meagrely, then that uniformed man answer, "What else do which is thought of the youngster if is not woman problem", his laugh a few laughed loudly and I even also follow last it accompanying of that man walk off our conference. Do not old then I start my chamber door and street door cover, rest to hope tomorrow too late don't again go to the campus.

Till day is tomorrow arrive me even also will not meet 'cc' in campus, because schedule we differ in one study. I start the day by trying to it forgetting little by little difficult even. In this case I feel if that love is not to be owned but to be discovered. The love is strong be like lethal, he can release entire  potency in your life, or he will bury it to the last your life. Let your love choose his happiness, even sacrifice your happy. "If you love someone, you've got to let it go.”

Yes, forgiveness if my limitation in have this article and words is fully created with text Indonesia language. This article also only small shares of creation of my novel, estimating will be finished if I feel to be made do with my nonage which will not recurred twice.